No Holiday BUT...

So I didn't go for another holiday because I had too many things to do but I did spend some time thinking about where I should be heading. I've never been happy to simply float along day by day though I often end up doing that because I'm fatigued and lack the energy to get off my doofus and do something.

I've been busy planning my gym work, especially now that my clients will be here again for the next six months, and how I need to train to play the tennis game I want to. It's not easy remembering that I can't simply go to the gym and the tennis court on the same day everyday because I want to do so much more than I am already doing.

For example, I have to keep in mind that any injuries I suffer from over-exertion aren't going to go away as easily as when I was younger AND that I do get injured more easily nowadays. So it's been a case of trying to balance the different kinds of physical stuff the last few weeks while trying to stay sharp enough to deal with the mental and aesthetic side of what I do, too.

I couldn't help recollecting some of the really stupid things I did when I was younger and fitter, however. Really shameful the way I hoped to "become best friends" with good-looking guys back then. I keep telling my nephews and nieces that you can't buy friendship or liking with money, gifts, favours or even by being a doormat because I'm speaking from experience. I wish I'd been able to accept that fact of life when I was younger. It would have saved me a lot of embarassment and self-loathing for sure.

There was that time I thought I'd made a a friend (let alone "with benefits") when I was sharing a room with a gorgeous Indian boy at a local tennis tournament. We were both 17 and I can't believe how badly I made a fool of myself because I wanted to be his 'friend'. If only I'd been able to think 'friendship' and forego the subconscious ulterior motives...*sigh* But at that age, the hormones make thinking rationally a tad difficult. And don't get me started on the Thai guys I encountered when I first started going to Thailand for 'recreational holidays'...

Hopefully, I'm a little wiser now and won't make the same mistakes. I certainly have become a little grouchy  and suspicious (okay, so a lot) about being told what to do for anyone by anyone. I always suspect some kind of hidden agenda but then, speaking from experience, I guess it takes one to know one!